Hoping to find Carmel.. :( (CARMELA)

[sammie]

This moment is perfect

Please don't go away

I sigh, my eyes red and puffy from crying. I can't have Carmel be mad at me, she is so sweet and funny and nice and caring. I look around, I'd texted her asking her to meet me here at 7. It's 6:55. I avoid the people asking if I'm okay and tap my foot, hoping she'll come.

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LYRICS~ innocence|Avrile Lavine
WORD COUNT~
CREDITS~ kayla storm

[Carmela Vigil]

I didn't answer Sammie's texts and inogred my phone when she called. However, I decided to go and meet up with her at 7:00, maybe I'll get some answers for once. I had just taken a shower so my curly hair was in a dark curtain around my face. I took my time chosing my outfit and finally made my way to the Media Center, taking the longest route I could think out.
It was 7:18 when I walked in. I spotted Sammie quickly and walked over to her. I crossed my arms and waited for her to speak with one eyebrow arched.

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[sammie]

My kingdom awaits,

THEY'VE FORGIVEN MY MISTAKES

I see Carmel right away and my lips quiver. Good. You came. I say, and pause. OKay, so let me explain something to you. I pause again, to check her expression. I've been lying to you this whole time, except of course, about my ranch, family, siblings, and my name and age... So I guess I've lied to you once. I have had many boyfriends, but I've been hurt so bad in the past. My last ex just got arrested, and that's been really, really hard. Coming here, I wanted a fresh start from all that. I guess I can't change who I am, because I've always been a stupid flirt. I can tell you one thing, I have NO feelings for Ben, and I meant it when I said you could go for him. I really was just inviting him to the Sweete Shop with the rest of us, plus, he kept looking at you and I could tell he likes you! I just.. I really hope you can forgive me. I say, now there are tears running down my face.

I'M coming HOME

LYRICS: comming home| diddy dirty money
WORD COUNT: who knows???
CREDITS: kayla storm

[Carmela Vigil]

I regarded her with cold eyes. It was indeed hard for me to watch her cry but there was no way that I was going to break down also and forgive her. No way. Sammie has hurt and lied to me to many times for me to do that. So I looked at her, and felt the mean side of me, the side that I loathe, the side everyone has, rise up.

I understand why you went after Ben. I told her, I mean, look at you. I gave her a half smile, saying how pretty she was. So, I swallowed hard. This was going to be hard to say. So, I don't blame you for flirting with every single boy you see. Its not like you can help it or anything. I mean, I said wishing I didn't have to say it. like its so strange to me on why guys are always throwing themselves at you. Its so weird on how the world works that way.

The words physically hurt me to say and I regretted them as soon as they escaped my mouth. I wondered how much was going to change because how what I just said. Now, as I watch Sammie crying in front of me, I'm wishing I can reverse on what I had spoke.

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[sammie]

My kingdom awaits,

THEY'VE FORGIVEN MY MISTAKES

I gulp, my eyes filling with hurt. Oh.. I... I stutter before standing up, my heart pounding in the pain of what she just said to me. It's all true. And then, I remember what I was asking myself earlier. Why did I come here? I left the Media Center and went back to my dorm, holding back tears.

I'M coming HOME

LYRICS: comming home| diddy dirty money
WORD COUNT: who knows???
CREDITS: kayla storm

[Carmela Vigil]

I hated myself.

Once Sammie had left, I collapsed onto the ground and sat in a futile position. I wasn't crying but the hardness in my throat suggested that the waterworks will make an appearance soon. As i numbly rocked back and forth, I regretted everything I had said to Sammie. Why did I have to say that to her? Why didn't I chase her down after she left? There was too many questions that I had to answer for myself.

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[sammie]

I collapse on my bed, crying, tears running down my face. I need to go see Midnight.