Writing a letter to Carmela (OPEN)

[sammie]

This moment is perfect
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I recite the lines of a poem I once read in my head. I belong to that aloneness as I belong to my life. I think to myself. Strange that that poem came to mind as I wrote down the words I was about to give to Carmela. I don't even know if I have hope left that she will forgive me. And I don't blame her. I lied to her, betrayed her and acted like a total snob. I mean, of course I wasn't going to tell her all of my secrets in the first week, but she had a reason to be mad.

I finish the final sentance of my letter, happy with what I've written. I read it over...

Dear Carmela,
It`s been so hard for me since I first got here. I`m not the confident person I`m portrayed to be, and I've made SO many mistakes. I did lie to you, because of my own petty insecurities. I flirted with the boy I knew you wanted, and I am so sorry for that, though I hope you know I have not a feeling for him. When I first met you, I knew you'd be an amazing friend. And you were, and I cherish the time we spent together, as you were one of the first real friends I'd had in ages. I know I'm asking too much, in too little time. But I really hope one day you can think about forgiving me.
Love,
Samantha

I sigh, knowing I've written the right thing. I quickly walk to her dorm, avoiding attempts at conversation, and slip the letter into her dorm message box.

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LYRICS~ innocence|Avrile Lavine
WORD COUNT~
CREDITS~ kayla storm

[calliefan234]

I run into the dorm, late, as usual. My long slightly curly hair bounced around my shoulders. I turned a corner and almost slammed into Sammie. I took a step back, looking down at my toes. Ever since Sammie and Carmela got into a fight, Carmel hadn't talked to me and Sammie acted like I wasn't even a friend. "Hey." I acknowledged her quietly, momentarily forgetting about class.

[sammie]

"hey" I smile, my eyes friendy.

[calliefan234]

I glance at Carmela's room. "Why are you in here?" I ask, knowing this wasn't her dorm. I shifted my shoulder bag.

[sammie]

I look over at Violet. "I have to give Carmela something." I pause. "Why are you acting like you're mad at me?"

[Carmela Vigil]

Um... hi. I opened my dorm door only to find Sammie and Violet. I smiled at Violet but my lower tip trembled at Sammie. Hey Sam? Can we maybe meet up later? To talk? Just text me. I asked her. I gave them both an awkward smile and headed out of my dorm, leaving the two behind.

[sammie]

I know she's read the letter, so I nod. I turn to Violet, my face blank. 'Are we friends or not?"

[calliefan234]

I almost take a step back. "Of course? Why would you think that?" My eyes flash with anger and I hoist my shoulder bag over my shoulder, preparing to run. I thought Sammie was my best friend.

[sammie]

My kingdom awaits,

THEY'VE FORGIVEN MY MISTAKES

I smile. Good. I thought something was off, and you're a great friend, I wouldn't want to lose you, too. I say.

I'M coming HOME

LYRICS: comming home| diddy dirty money
WORD COUNT: who knows???
CREDITS: kayla storm
TAGGED: Who knows? Whoever comes along.
Happy Summer

[calliefan234]

I take a breath, visibly relaxed. "you are too. Want to go the slice later?" I turn to Carmel. "You too. It will be nice." I smile at both of them.

[sammie]

OOC: Carmel's gone

I nod, smiling. Sure I say.

[calliefan234]

OOC: OK

I smile. "Cool. I'll text Carmel and ask her if she wants to." I sent her a quick text, then smiled at Sammie.

[sammie]

I look confused. She hasn't forgiven me yet.